I asked the Lord...

Daily I have to struggle with the need to want to control things. If something needs to be done, fixed, changed, managed...I am your girl. Here's what I've recently discovered though - most of my frustration and despair comes from moments when I try to have the most control, and it doesn't do any good. I read these words today, and John Newton says it so much better than I can. What a beautiful reminder for us when we struggle with things out of our control! That thou mayest seek thy all in me... That thou mayest seek thy all in me.

I Asked The Lord
(by John Newton)

I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith and love and every grace
Might more of His salvation know
And seek more earnestly His face

Twas He who taught me thus to pray
And He I trust has answered prayer
But it has been in such a way
As almost drove me to despair

I hoped that in some favored hour
At once He'd answer my request
And by His love's constraining power
Subdue my sins and give me rest

Instead of this He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart
And let the angry powers of Hell
Assault my soul in every part

Yea more with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Cast out my feelings, laid me low

Lord why is this, I trembling cried
Wilt Thou pursue thy worm to death?
"Tis in this way" The Lord replied
"I answer prayer for grace and faith"

"These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free
And break thy schemes of earthly joy
That thou mayest seek thy all in me,
That thou mayest seek thy all in me."